I've been absent for a while. My feelings have been too private to share with the internet...even my own little corner that remains, I think, happily unvisited. I've a list, though; one of those lists that people make at the end of the year, a reflection on what has been and what is to come. Mine is a list of things I learned in 2012.
I have never hurt more than I did this year.
I have never grown more than I did this year.
I hardly recognize myself anymore. I hope...I hope that that's a good thing.
I learned that there are consequences to erring from the will of God, and that I am bound to hurt if I do so. His boundaries are for my protection, and no temporary joy is worth the lasting pain of injuring myself and, more importantly, my Savior.
More than ever, I understand now that there is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in.
Whatever keeps me from my LORD, whether it's jealousy, rage, or simply listening to Christian music instead of spending time in prayer, is sin and should be treated as such.
There is unfathomable beauty in the name of YHWH. As a Christian, I should acknowledge this more than I do. I understand that Christ was Emmanuel, thus bringing God among us, and that Pentecost allowed God to be within us. We thus have a closeness to Him. Yet, the Jewish reverence for the name of God is something that followers of Jesus would do well to remember.
